you want the honest truth?
im freaking sick of all the advice.
all the advice from EVERYONE is making me feel so tired.
yes, that partly explains the tired look.

i KNOW that im worrying too much abt EVERYTHING.
and that i should leave it to God...
sigh. but everything thats undone worries me.
costume, gifts, script, games...

if i were my old (cynical) self, id take a back seat and then laugh at all the things gone wrong after dat. and not give a damn.
but i realised ive lost de ability to do dat.
i cant just throw my hands up and heck care.

and i dont understand why you HAVE to be in control of everything?
i cant get why someone needs to know every detail rite down to what we're doing for tml?
cant you WAIT for tml and SEE it?
why do you HAVE to know beforehand?
its like your driving up KL and having to know exactly which exit to take, which road to turn...
cant there be ANY uncertainty in your life? any element of surprise?

i dont get it.
and im too tired of crying.